When you feel stuck, remember who's in control.

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Unfortunately the last few days were hard for me. Walking with God isn't easy. The enemy will try anything to get YOU to make a U-Turn on God because you are a threat to him simple as that, but one of my biggest opps is myself and my thoughts. As soon as you let doubt sneak in, you're done for if you don't train yourself to fight the lies with the truth. Combat them with scripture. Repeat it over and over and over again. And I was done for, for two days. But by God's grace and faithfulness, I landed back where I was, full of peace and love for Him and His plan for my life. So don't be discouraged when you struggle or you sin, because Gods power is perfected in our weaknesses. (2 Cor 12:9)

But before that happened, I was recommended by a podcast, to set the tone and listen to worship music before getting into my Word and praying, and it helped so much. I was journaling and everything I was thinking came out so smoothly. I can usually understand what is from me and what's from God when I journal. When I come up with cool analogies, I know it's His wisdom. We're expecting a blizzard tonight, but it's been raining all day, and as I was journaling He said that I was going to be okay. That He was protecting me. The wind and rain that were pounding on my window were not getting in.

The same way that I can trust the strength of the wood that my house relies on, I can nap and wake up without my home being gone because the wind and rain are not as powerful, is the same way I should feel about my faith and doubt. God says to take that nap with faith that I will wake up unharmed. Even though the sound on my window sounds scary, and I notice it, doesn't mean it's going to harm me. Even though I started having doubts about the things I'm doing for the kingdom, doesn't mean they have access to my room, (my headspace) so He's saying to ignore the sound and let Him protect us. It wouldn't make sense to open the window, so just ignore it like everything else, but do that with your doubts and fears. So let Him continue to guide you. Ignore the stares and the rumors, and just follow Him.

I think that helped me remember that God is in control of my life. I felt a peace that I was doing something right when I made this blog, and put myself out there. Nothing I do goes unnoticed, even if people in the world ignore or laugh at my attempts, I have a Father who is proud and smiling on the side lines. I found myself reading Isaiah 28:16 after He told me that and it says, "Look, I have laid a stone in Zion, a tested stone, a precious cornerstone, a sure foundation; the one who believes will be unshakeable." He says in His Word a promise that those who trust in Him, will not be shaken, a promise that will supply stability, peace and eternal hope. So take that with you tonight. Just like our feelings, the weather is also temporary, and not everyday is meant to be sunny. We need rain, wind, and snow in our lives too, even when we crave sun the most, but it's needed for growth. It's needed for our development. It's okay to have gloomy days, just don't open your window when you're faced with fear and doubt. Matter of a fact, take a nap and let God put those doubts to rest.